Friday, June 30, 2006

Goodbye June

This was a cruel month of June filled with a series of unfortunate events. I felt a bit helpless because none of these incidents were in my control. If there's anything I've learned about this June its patience. Some things you can't slow down. Other things you can't speed up.

Philosophically, I've been engaged in a deep internal conversation about healing and have come to the conclusion that it all must happen in its own time. I'm just going to have to buckle up and enjoy the ride. Though sometimes the sadness is almost paralyzing or fear steers you in the wrong direction. Sometimes a broken heart shouldn't be listened to. Sometimes you just want to do something else to keep you from feeling the way you do and I can become reckless. I have a lot of fight in me. I'm in the game to win and I have faith that happy endings do happen. I will not let the nay sayers hold me down.

At the same time, I strive for eudemonia, which is life in accordance with excellence. If my goal is happiness, then it must come from the best in me. No one is harder on myself than me. I don't want to question every little move, but I do. The hypocrisy of my previous statements isn't lost on me. I should lower my burdens and not care about things that are not in my control. At the same time, I care about my friends and family too much not to. I have to start with faith in the fact that tomorrow is a new day and I'm dealt a blank slate, a new start (carte blanche). Goodbye June. Hello July!


Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Dorothy DeMaio

I love you Grandma! Love! Love! Love!